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[Feb. 12th, 2006|01:12 pm] |
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| | everything im not The veronicas | ] |
You stole my from the inside
You took my heart away
I cant do nothing but cry,
I cant go on this way
Im lost Inside
I need to find something to make me feel alive
Anything to forget the pain
I need to be beter and win this game
I cant just sit here im loseing my mind
Its getting harder to breath, I try to forget about how
We used to be But Ive fallin without a doubt
You still have all of me
You dont seem to notice Im trying anything to make you see
But now I see That I ant sitting around to wait for you
To care
I wont find the one that I dont have to make be there
Another poem
I look in the miior
Stare down my reflection
Notice that its slightly irregular
Not quite the model of prefection
ANy i use dto despise that
TO whine,Groan and Complain
Until i finally realized
That all-in all Im not so plain
I tried that "natural" look
the one whare less is more
It took many hours to achieve
And left my wallet witha big sore
If its the inside that counts
Why does Barbie have countless new 'dos
And if shes so confident
Why do you allways have to buy her friends too
These days if it looks good its fake'
Ture beauty is a wrod of the past
Make-up,medicine and surgery
Money makes the perfect body last!
Think models are perfect
Not by a long shot...
It's the computer editing
and custom-made clothes that make them look hot
So as i stared myself down
No detail gone unseen
Things werent as bad as i thought
All- in all i looked fine as good 'ole me~
My shape isnt perfect
No,im not a size two
Or a four,or a six
Its not me:period end of it through
im what i am
Curvy curly and alive
I wear what i want
and dont spend hours putting on a disguise
if guys want a girl
Whoe does hide beind a mask
sory i just cant be her
Im not up for that task
i love these poems
Anyways not much has been going on just school I have this week off or winter break so if anyone wants to do anything just let me know...
I dont have a valintine yet
"SAD FACE"
SHrugs i hope i get one laughs |
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| whad up everyone |
[Feb. 7th, 2006|01:52 pm] |
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| | you and me lifehouse | ] |
hey whad up?
Same shit different day here,Chillen n computers.
I have ten mins left of class than on to geography whatfun!
I am n the worst of moods right now,And i havent started yet still its been like
2 months!What the fuck is that shit?! Do u think my mom would take me to the doctors umm no,,
she hasnt yet!
This is crazy i wish i would just start allready!
Thats stressing me out even more on top of school and trying to find a job.
Its not because im underweight cause i weigh 110 but i eat its not like i dont eat! I havent done nothing though i d k.can we say stressted out!!! Oh shawn and cory want me to go out but i dont know
well im out cause im bout to switch classes. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|02:07 pm] |
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| | Lincoln Park I like there cd its awsome Or blink 182 | ] |
Whats up everyone? Not to much here,Im n class right now, I am going for my diploma i have classes from 10:35 to 4:45 and get Fridays off. I registerd at Hazel park because you only need 19 credits to graduate there.So ill probally be graduatein gthis summer i hope!Rock on There classes are only 7 weeks long.Not too bad,Plus i get fridays off which is cool. I filled out an app for pac sun,and i filled out one for Subway i have to turn in yet. But other than that not much is new. I got my noise periced. My fricking internet is not working at home yet But should be working this weekend i hope i will update later. Well i am off to my next class, Ughh.What fun.
Wish me luck...... |
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| yaa i can register mon |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|03:44 am] |
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| | Lenny cravis Crazy for this lil lady | ] |
hey wad up I can register Mon for Hazel park, And u can be 18,Rock on thank gosh!Something done My mom said that she would go into work late so she can take me to register. Finally Classes are Mon-Thursday so ica n hold down a job too. Rock on more! I ammm sooo soo happy.Well i have cramps right now really bad,But i should still go out tonight. Oh and i was talking to ben last night and hes talking about getting married allready.?1 Wowa! Laughs just that he wants to allready though cause hes like 21.Im like ha not me i need to get my shyt straight before anything. Well i just wanted to update and say i am signing up for clases next week I called Macomb and you have to be 20 there?! Whats up with that?!
Well i am out right now hopefully going tanning,and my mom to take me to the mall to get apps.
Later everyone
love madna |
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| Sitting here watching newley weds |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|11:49 am] |
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| | With you jessica simpson | ] |
How is everyone doin? Im allright just got done working out, I swar thats all i ever do laughs.
I really don't like feeling fat, I dont know n -e-ways, Right now im watching the Newley Weds dvds. "Nick and Jessica" Love them! Ha Ha
N e way tomarrow i am getting up and working out agian earley Because my grandma is takeing me to register for my ged tomarrow I think im going to take day classes so i can actaully go out at night and stuff still.
i hope i can start like my classes Monday allrady,My bro said he would help me with my math,Thats the only thing i need help with i get everythign elese.
But n e whos after that i am going to Macomb mall to get apps for pac sun and stuff And i wanna go tanning tomarrow too.
I am also going out tomarrow night with Robby. So thats alot 2 do and im still up right now ha,Watching newley weds.Great i should go to bed well i am out have a good night everbody.
Love you guys
love me |
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| Nothing accomplished but working out GREAT |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|09:43 am] |
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| | 4eva the veronicas | ] |
Hey wadd up people? Shyt here well i called the ged place around 12 today and noonce fricking answerd! So there for nothing accomplished agian.My moms gonna call there tomarrow from work,Cause im soo serious about getting my ged and my shit done. I hate not haveing a job and i wanna work at Pac sun or American eagle.Well today i didnt do much i was gonna go out with Robby But he couldnt get here till 9 10 and i told him that would be to late,He called around like 6 30 today.Ha Well instead of ben comeing here Friday hes comeing here Saturday movieng plans agian and Robby is comeing to get me Friday and im going with him to his cousins house. Were gonna party, It should be cool to hang out with him i havent seen that guy in a long time, My mom also said it was okay for me to go out which is a good thing!Shes letting me do more thank gosh, I kinda dont wanna go bymeself i was hopeing Crystal or someone would go but eaitehr way im gonna go and have fun.Better than sitting here and beign dapressed about stupid shit."Cough Luis" LOL Which dont even matter. Anyways well i am off for now I am gonna get online when my brother is done with the computer or talking to his chicks whatever he is doing. I have to talk to Ben online we will probally be up talking all night agian.LOL We allways do that, He wanted to come here last night it was soo cute hes like i wanna come cuddel with u. Ha ha well im off for now gonna go work out some more and tomarrow its asapossed to be warm out so i am going to rollerblade. Well im out.
Good night
sweet dreams everyone |
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| watching my newley weds dvds brd |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|01:03 pm] |
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| | Let me love you mario | ] |
-.F I R S T.T H I N G S.F I R S T.-
[my name is]: Amanda Marie Smith
[in the morning i am]:calling butcher,working out
[all I need is]: More sleep
[love is]: Hard to find Hard to get over,And PAINFULL!
[I'm afraid of]: someone breaking my heart once they get it
[I dream about]: Stuff i cant have
-.F A V O R I T E S.-
[COLOR]: Hot Pink
[NUMBER]: 69
[DRINK]: Red bull,Monster Energy drinks
[ANIMAL]: None really
[HOLIDAY:]whatever one works!
[ACTOR/ACTRESS]: Brad pitt,Shane west,Mathew mcaney,Jessica Simpson,Ashlee simspon,Mandy moore
-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]:Yes cause if we do anything were sluts
bitched at for it whats up with that?! What are u saying?
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Nope not lately
-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[fallen for your best friend]: Yes Well i d k what he was"LUIS"
[been rejected]: Not lately laughs
[used someone]: no
[been cheated on]: nope that would suck if you were
[done something you regret]: O BOY DEEP BREATH TOO MANY!One impiticular thing!
-.D O.Y O U / A R E.Y O U.-
[smoke cigarettes]: Heck no soo groose
[obsessive]: i dont think so what kinda ques is that?
[what's your favorite food?]:taco bell,subway.Fries
[whats your favorite fruit?]: Straw berrys
[drink alcohol?]: Yes Smirnoffs Bacardiey Captin morgan
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Yes when your with someone!
[what hurts the most?]When your in love and someone hurts you
-.P I C K.O N E.-
[CATS OR DOGS:] .....
[1 PILLOW OR 2 :] 2
[W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES: ]Ughh With i guess
[TOP OR BOTTOM :] Eaither one will work!
[WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL:] Summer
[NIGHT OR DAY:] Night
[GLOVES OR MITTENS:] the ones that are the cutest
[DRESSED OR UNDRESSED:] Hmm if your hot take it off "lol"and me if hes hot undressed
[BUNK OR WATER BED:] umm i d k
[OCEAN OR POOL:] Pool Whatever will do
[SHOWERS OR BATHS:]Shower
[LOVE OR LUST:] Love!
[SILVER OR GOLD:] Silver
[DIAMONDS OR PEARLS:] Diamonds
-.I F.Y O U.C O U L D.-
[Move anywhere:] Cancoon Mexico For sure!
[Meet one famous person:] Brad Pitt
[Live with one person the rest of your life:] I dont know yet....Geez im hard to live with lol
[Name one thing you love:] Working out
[Name one thing that embarrasses you:] Notta Thing
[Do you like school?] I think i will like going for my ged
[Do you like to talk on the telephone?] Yes ofcourse!
[Do you like to dance?] YES YES I LOVE IT! DO IT EVERY NIGHT!
[Do you sing in the shower?] i sing all the tyme
[Do you think cheerleading is a sport?]: OFCOURSE
[What's on your ceiling?] Moon n stars walls ceiling nothing,
[What's the hardest thing about growing up?] Becomeing indapendant when you dont want too! |
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| Working out and I NEED A JOB |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|05:56 am] |
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| | nasty girl Natiours big | ] |
SOO Stressed out!
#1Tomarrow i need to call butcher community schools set an appointment with councalour to see when i can sign up for classes,And if i still can!!!
#2 I am going to go to macomb mall to get Applications eaither at Pac sun, Or american eagle i really want to work at pac sun though really bad so i hope they heir me.
Thats about it,But i am doing all of that tomarrow because i keep putting shit off and i hate it.!!! Ughh so im am deffentley doing that tomarrow so i can get a job and take classes. Hopefully the ged thing dont take up all my time though
anyways other than those two things just been working out And talking to Ben online, well i am off too go do something and going to bed earley tonight so i can get that done tomarrow it sucks though because i want a job at macomb mall and i have to get rides there.Gay gay and more gay!!!
Ughh did i say i was stressed out.laughs
well im off for now
love me |
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| Chillen,Workingout,Tanning,BEING BORDE! |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|03:06 am] |
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| | lots of energy!lol | ] |
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| | Photography nickel back Hot song! | ] |
Hey guys whats up? Shyt here chillen and writeing in this cause my bro has his away shit up.Greatness.LOL Anyways Im soo happy lately. Are movie thing didnt happen its happeing Friday,but weve been talking alot and he just seems soo sweet. I think he is too cute for me though i might have some compatition and i dont like that i soo wanna come first. But right now he just seems really sweet. Im gonna prepare for the worst though allrady because than it wont be soo bad .LOL But hes takeing me mind of Luis right now which is good good thing! Wish me luck that hes a one of those nice guys,Cause valintines day is comeing up and i soo dont wanna be by myself.Urghh sometimes its fun adn sometimes its not! Nows one of the times whare its not! Ha ben says he needs a new cuddel buddy too.Aww "wink" Anyways well im allrgiht i guess just same o shit I really need to go for my ged Cause i need a job i hate not feeling idapendent at all. I mean i have everything elese going for me right now and just cause i droped outta school doesnt mean i cant fix it and get my ged?! Why not! Everything elese i want i go for ive been working out alot too. I wanna be like those laguna beach girls lol.HA HA That ell never happen but i can try, ANYWAYS im out for now just wanted to update while i was sitting here i guess.
Love you guys
Love manda |
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| RANDOM UPATE BRD CHILLEN |
[Jan. 7th, 2006|08:54 am] |
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| |  ditzy | ] |
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| | TIGER LILY MATCH BOX ROMANCE | ] |
Hey whad up everyone? Well i havent done much lately just chillen. My moms candel party is tonight so i am here helping here witht that,And talking to ben on line. He seems really sweet so far, I dont know if any one can make me forget about luis? I dont know what it is about that guy therse just something about him,His eyes,his smile, his style, the way he sings, I dont know im just weird.We never even done anything and i allrady know there is no point n seeeing whats out there because i feel like he is the one for me. I dont know what love is i know that but i know theres something there because when ever he is gone i hate it and things arent the same.Crystal says hes not worth my time, and He isnt because really he treats me like shit He dont even know im alive. And thats what sucks because he never rally even gave me a chance. Ah well i guess im gonna try and see what happens start talking to new guys,continue too look better and just maybe hell relize one of these days and itll be too late?! Im just rambling on and on But i dont know i fricking miss the heck out of that boy?! He dont even know what he could have, I mean im not saying he cant get better because he probally acutally he could get better,but he could of at least noticed me and gave me a chance.
Enough rambling on and on Well i dont know tomarrow ben is comeing here at 6 soo wish me luck and hope that things go good for me,And hes not a dick head laughs i dont really know him and im allrady have second thoughts about it. Ughh im soo not the dateing type of girl but we will see We are watching a walk to remember.Rock on.
Well i am off to hang with people here and have a few drinsk even though i rally shouldnt drink because i need to start my diet and working out agian.
I miss all you guys leave me some comments.
LOVE LOVE YOU MANDA |
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| Over tired |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|05:06 pm] |
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| | way over tired | ] |
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| | this one fall out boys suga were goin down | ] |
Hey how is everyone doing? Im allright, same shit different day. Nothin really new here just been hanging out with Crystal and being lazy.
I am talking to Ben walker too online.He seems like a nice guy but we will see,And hes really cute!might i add,lol but who knows all guys turn out to be assholes right?! He wants to hang out Sunday here and watch a movie oh no. wish me luck lol.Well this is a random update for nothing at all but im on soo i figured why not...I love love love you guys soo much!
im soo over tired and off to bed laughs.
leave me some love
this song sounded good for now
. Sugar, We're Goin Down
Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
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Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it |
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| Lame! |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|06:38 am] |
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| | TIRED | ] |
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| | ROUMERS LINDSEY LOHAN!LOVE LOVE THIS SONG! | ] |
Wad up everyone? Not to much here, Well i couldnt get online yesterday gay! But now its working agian so thast hoyt! Today i went 2 Greatskate. From 1-4 Ha lol Im soo lame , but i had fun betta than sitting in the house and its a work out so why nots?! There were some hot guys working there, Otha than that nothing special.
I got new pics up on my space so check em out,And my little cousin is going to put new ones up from today at great skate dumb ones of me eating pizza.But the ones from cmas are hot so you guys should check em out for sure! Im wasted in the ones from cmas but there still fricking hoyt!
Well im out for now cause i got shyt to do and im tired. So Later!
Love you guys
Manda
My URL:
http://www.myspace.com/autobiography27
look at my pics! leave me some comments
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| This is my new live journal Add me guys! |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|07:34 am] |
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| | Something i never had Lindsay Lohan | ] |
Hey guys wad up this is my new live journal!The other one got boring,And its old!Soo add me!Love you all and Crystal if you have time make a hot lay out for me ill im you with the password.Thank you much!
Dis chicka is out right now though love you all
Something i never had
By lindsey Lohan
Do you see me/Do you feel me like i feel you/Call your number/I cannot get through/You dont hear me I dont understand/When i reach out/I dont find your hand/Were they wasted words/Did they mean a thing/And all that precious time/But i still feel so in between//Chours//Someday i just keep pretending/Youll stay/Dreaming of a different ending/I wanna hold on but it hurts soo bad/And i cant keep something that i never had/ But i keep telling myself that things can turn around/ With time,And if i wait it out youll change your mind/ like a fairy tall whare it works out in the end/Can i close my eyes have you lying hear agian than i come back down than i fade back in Than i realize its just whare my head is/Chours/ Am i a shadow on your wall/Am i anything at all/Anything to you/Am i a secreat that you keep/Do you see me when your dreaming afer all/ I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad and i cant keep something that i never had
The lindsay lohan cd is awsome go buy it every song is good lol!The speak cd
HAPPY NEW YEARS LOVE YOU GUYS
2006 WOW 19 IN SEPTEMBER THIS YEAR THATS OLD! |
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